Here in the real world...

I have been having kind of a hard time lately being a first year teacher where I am right now. I am the youngest by far who is working there as a teacher and it is just hard not to have anyone to talk to. When I talk to some of the other teachers sometimes I just want to vent but I cannot. I guess I am just kind of down. I really shouldn't be, but I am frustrated, I hate having to do other people's jobs and having to answer to the students when people do their jobs wrong. I am having trouble with knowing my boundaries between keeping the students quiet and busy at something and having them do the right thing. I seem to feel like I get caught in the middle of other teachers, one saying do this the other saying do that. Keeping professional when others aren't can be really hard.

Another thing that has been getting to me is people taking someone's word for gospel and not questioning it. Today we had a "training" on how the brain works, and no one really quested the validity of some of the things being said but just took them for gospel. I don't like that. You can't learn about things if you do not debate them or at least question them a little. Brain science is so complex that there really is no "right" answer in it that they could know 100%. That is just me being skeptical.

Today I was finally approached also by the teacher who is suppose to be "helping" me with this project that have been working on and almost completed asked me if I wanted her help on something. Of course I said no because it is a one person job now since I am almost done. I hate people trying to take credit when they aren't due it.